The Founder’s Backpack: What You’re Carrying Without Realising (Part 2)

This 3-part series unpacks the hidden baggage founders carry and how it silently shapes their leadership, decisions, and company culture. From old wounds and unprocessed experiences that keep resurfacing, to the weight of past hires and outdated habits, founder baggage can quietly sabotage growth. Across these three articles, we’ll explore how to spot it, how it shows up in business, and most importantly, how to put it down so you can lead with clarity and energy. Drawing on founder stories and coaching insights, this series reframes baggage not as weakness, but as a signpost for growth.

Tuesday, January 13, 2026

The Business Growth Reset Journal/The Founder’s Backpack: What You’re Carrying Without Realising (Part 2)

The Founder’s Backpack: What You’re Carrying Without Realising (Part 2)

In Part 1 we talked about the founder’s backpack. The hidden weight of old mistakes, outdated habits and emotional debts that you carry with you, every working day.

I know, and you are now learning, that you don’t carry it quietly.
Whether you realise it or not, that baggage leaks out.
Into your team. Into your decisions. Into the way you run your business.

And it can create chaos!

I see it all the time. A founder who micromanages because they were let down years ago. A founder who under-prices because once upon a time, one client complained about a fee. A founder who avoids hard conversations, because they had a disastrous fallout with a partner or team member, many moons ago.

Some founders also avoid making the right decisions for their own businesses, because they are worried about how they may look to others. How their families and friends may judge them, their peers, and even how they think the outside world might see them.

They tell themselves these are strategic choices. But really? They’re baggage behaviours.

Baggage behaviours ripple.

Your baggage becomes your business model if:

▪️ You don’t trust your team - you become the bottleneck.
▪️You avoid risk because of past mistakes - you smother innovation.
▪️ You under-value yourself - you build a brand that feels cheap (and attracts clients who treat you that way).

The longer you carry it, the more normal it feels. You might be totally oblivious - but your team can sense it (even if they can’t put it into words).

I call this "the ghosts that run the company".

A founder I worked with had been burned by hiring the wrong staff early on. It cost her time, money and a lot of heartache. Years later, she still carried that story with her.

Every time she needed to hire, she froze. She’d stall for months, telling herself the timing wasn’t right (and a hundred other excuses). When she finally recruited, she micromanaged her new hires to death. Her staff turnover continued to be sky high - not because the hires were bad, but because they felt smothered.

Her business was technically "growing fast" but she was exhausted and constantly on edge. Why? Because the ghost of that first bad hire was still in the room, influencing every decision.

We worked together on this and after two months, the turning point came.
She finally saw it and admitted it.
We literally said it out loud together: "You’re letting a five-year-old mistake make your hiring decisions!!!"
Naming it, robbed it of its power.
She stopped carrying it silently and started creating a new process for bringing people in.

Once she buried that ghost, her energy changed. Her team changed. The whole business shifted.

It was amazing to see and even more amazing to be part of the solution that helped her, her business and her team.

Are you unsure if you’ve let old baggage creep into your business?

Here are three subtle signs your baggage is running the show:

1. Double standards: You hold your team to one set of rules but give yourself a free pass "because I know better." That’s not leadership, that’s baggage in disguise.

2. Déjà vu decisions: You’re avoiding or repeating the same scenarios over and over again. So every hire feels like déjà vu, or every launch feels like a rescue mission.

3. Energy leaks: You finish the week and feel disproportionately drained, compared to what you actually achieved. That usually means you’re carrying emotional weight, not just workload.

So, how do you stop your baggage from running the company?

Name the ghost. What past experience is shaping your current choices? Write it down, say it out loud, tell someone you trust. Clarity starts there.

Fact-check your fears. Ask: Is this decision based on what’s happening now, or what happened then? If the evidence is only in the past, you’re reacting to a ghost, not reality.

Create fresh rules: For every outdated belief ("I can’t trust new hires"), write a new operating principle ("I hire with clarity, train well, and let people prove themselves").

Ask for respectful feedback: Ask your team where they feel restricted or second-guessed. You’ll be surprised how often they can pinpoint the weight you’re still carrying.

There is an awesome upside to this discovery process.

When you release your baggage, you don’t just clear the air for yourself. You unlock your team.

When you stop micromanaging, they step up.
When you stop under-valuing, they start selling with confidence.
When you stop avoiding conflict, they trust you to lead through stormy weather.

Your baggage may be and feel personal, but the relief of letting it go is collective. The whole business breathes easier.

The moment you notice, name and challenge it, you break the cycle.

Here’s to no longer letting ghosts run your company.
Here’s to running it as the leader you actually are today, not the one you were years ago.

In the final part of this 3-part series, we will go into the "how" to move forward, weight-free.

See you next week,
Natalie x

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